Chapter Two Hundred and Forty-Eight: Secret Talk 2 (Julius’s POV)
Julius had already finished telling his story. Karen had, without a doubt, heard his abhorrent secret of birth that made anyone who heard it grimace. But now Karen braced herself as if to say she would endure whatever was said, waiting for Julius’s next words.
“I’m scared to imagine how the story could connect from here to make me reconsider my engagement to you, Mr. Julius… but if it’s something I’m allowed to hear, I’ll listen! Could it be something criminal?”
Karen gulped and took on a resolute expression.
“If there are unavoidable circumstances, I can totally accept it. However, even if there aren’t circumstances… if you are truly repentant, I’m prepared to atone for that sin together with you!”
Julius’s background was apparently so insignificant to Karen that she couldn’t even recognize it as a reason to reconsider their engagement. More than trivial—for Karen, Julius being born was naturally not Julius’ sin.
So she didn’t even think it could be a reason to reconsider the engagement. Even if there had been a crime, Karen was saying she would atone for it together.
To such a Karen, Julius answered as if savoring each word:
“…I didn’t commit a crime.”
“I-I see. That’s good! Then what’s the secret that would make me reconsider the engagement?”
Karen said with a relieved expression.
Julius stared intently at Karen.
There had been people who said verbally to young Julius, consumed by guilt, “You’re not at fault.” But their faces, their eyes, were distorted with revulsion as they gazed at the sin that had taken the form of Julius.
However, Karen didn’t care in the slightest. On the contrary, looking up at the dumbfounded Julius, she added with a gentle expression:
“If you still want to hide it after all, that’s fine, Mr. Julius. I don’t believe married couples shouldn’t have secrets. Everyone has secrets, after all.”
Karen said this, still not realizing she had learned the secret that should have been grounds for her to feel revulsion toward Julius. When Julius couldn’t help but smile at Karen’s boundlessly bright wink, Karen said:
“As a matter of fact, I have secrets too!”
“You have secrets, Karen?”
Now it was Julius’s turn to brace himself. Various imaginings instantly flashed through his mind, and among them, Julius timidly voiced the most plausible possibility that had been tormenting him with anxiety:
“Don’t tell me—you’ve actually been intimately involved with Lyos?”
“What!? No way!”
When Karen dismissed it with a laugh, Julius exhaled. It had been a very possible scenario, since commoners didn’t value chastity as much as nobles did.
The Ehlertt family’s intelligence network had investigated Karen, but they couldn’t investigate what happened behind closed doors.
Remaining relieved, Julius asked her in a light tone:
“Then what is your secret? I told you everything, yet you won’t tell me?”
“Did you really tell me everything?”
Karen said while looking up at Julius quizzically.
“Well, like why I can make panaceas, that kind of thing!”
“…I see.”
Certainly, there was some kind of secret behind Karen’s alchemy. It would have been more difficult to react if she claimed there was no secret at all.
Regardless of what that secret was, the Ehlertt family’s policy was not to pry, but to protect her with all their strength should any issue arise. Julius followed the same stance. As a result, he had completely forgotten to pursue this secret that Karen held.
“I could tell you, but it takes a bit of courage to convey. Ah, but maybe you would reconsider our engagement if you knew this secret, Mr. Julius… so I think I won’t say it after all!”
Seeing Karen casually decide to keep it secret, Julius felt the tension drain from his shoulders.
Secrets were fine to tell or not tell. Even if Karen never spoke of her secret, though he would be curious, if she said she didn’t want to talk about it, Julius could accept that. Whatever secret Karen might reveal, just as Karen herself had said, Julius couldn’t imagine canceling the engagement over it.
When he put himself in Karen’s position, everything seemed absurdly simple. Just as it was enough for Julius that Karen was simply Karen. Surely for Karen too, it was enough that Julius was simply Julius.
“Oh…? Could it be that the secret you thought would make me reconsider the engagement is about your father doing something bad, Mr. Julius? But that’s not your fault… ah! Your expression says otherwise!”
Karen, who had finally noticed, read Julius’s expression and flared up in anger:
“You didn’t do anything wrong, Mr. Julius! Did you honestly think I’d break up with you over something like that!?”
Karen resumed eating while huffing. Apparently, her irritation brought her appetite back.
Julius narrowed his eyes as Karen furiously devoured the potato salad in front of her. Feeling belatedly forgiven in many ways, Julius found his appetite returning as well, and before he knew it, he had taken two heaping refills of potato salad.
